H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E
Friday, January 25, 2008, 12:39 AM
I just think I'm horrible.
I feel horrible, I feel bad.
I feel like I'm just leaving everything to Eve to do.
I seems so useless, beacause I'm unable to help her in anyway.
All I can do is to do report.

I'm horrible!!!!
I'm so sorry EVE, my love!
You have such a useless teammate.
I screwed up in OOP Project too.
I'm good in NOTHING!

I just feel so bad and heartahce to know that my loves
had such terrible feelings.
However, I seems that I can't help her in anything.
Just standing a side and see her fall apart.
I wish my programming is stronger,
so that I can catch hold of her.

I guess my health had been my greatest obstacles that
I really encountered.
I become getting tired easily,
hard to concentrate the things on hand.
I just dont like to be sick.
But the sickness had choose me.
And I will be living with it until my last day.
I can't run away.There is no escape.
It may seems just like an excuse.
But to be frank, I'm no longer as active as I used to be
I'm no longer can restand sleepless night.
I'm no longer can be as energetic as before.
I just don't like to be someone who is so weak.
Nothing I can do. Just Trust in the Lord.
I will be gone one day. Just a matter of time.

Not being negative but being realistic.
There are so things that I'm not up to standard.
I'm so unhappy with myself at times.
Don't know what the hell I really wanted!
I got no one to share my pain.
The pain is not cause of relationship.
But God knows what is deeply in my heart.
Only God knows my pain.
Sigh~~

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