Re-Called
Friday, April 4, 2008, 7:39 PM
Lately I have been using back my desktop.
As I was going through the different folder in my desktop.
I realized that I wrote a journal on 4th June 2007.
And when I read through it.
It refreshes my memory of what happen on that fateful day.

This is the journal I had written:

We are made differently so I'm not surprise that each and everyone of us have our very own thinking compare to others. We may be of the same age but it doesn't mean that our level of thinking is the same. We are brought up in different way as well; I believe that is the environment could affect our growing up and thinking. Some people can think maturely but sadly to say not all people.

Even the adults sometimes are rather childish, without even noticing it themselves. And they will never admit that they are childish, they will always think that they are right all the time even when times they are at fault, because of pride & they think they are adult & assume that they are mature. However, I don't totally agree with them. Yes, they mat be mature but not all the times, there are thimes they quarrel like children. This was what I have witnessed.

Once I met two adults ( 1 Man & 1 Woman), the woman was holding her child who seems 7 years old to me. This two adults were making a scene on the bus, they quarrel so loudly & spitting vulgarities at each other like nobody business ( can you imagine you are on the bus? ). If their intention is to get everyone's attention, they had succeed. Everyone on the bus was looking and paying attention to them and its real disturbance to me. ( I hate Nonsensical act ). I was thinking to myself: " What the hell is this two adult doing and thinking? It's such an embarrassment!" And the woman is with her child.

How will her child thinks? How can she ever be a good example to her child? May be her child will think that "Since Mum shouting on the bus is correct, therefore I can do likewise." This may be one of the consequence. Especially kids, they look up to their parents and parents actions & speech are influential to the kids. They are not being good example to children. Can you ever imagine how this child may turn out when he grow up?

Their behavior is obviously childish & unacceptable for being an adult; it's like small kids quarreling over some silly misunderstanding & makes a big fuss of it. Is this how adults & mature people behave?

Obviously not! People who are mature are able to think well & calmly & will not act impulsively so as not to ruin their reputation. It takes years to build up a good reputation in others' eyes, but it takes a second to totally destroy it. Whether the person is mature or not, we can see by their daily actions, behavior, talking, thinking., response and reactions. It's much more different from people who like to brag, action pack, loud speakers, people who do not think before doing anything.

And I find this phrase is rather true:
[ Empty Vessel Makes the Most Noise ]
I can't find any reason not to agree.

I've friends that like to shout like a loud speakers & get angry over things which seems waste of energy; waste of effort to be angry. I don't blame them, because they are still in the state of growing up. There are more things for them to learn. I believe that in future they will be a different person. As we grow older we tend to have changes in our thinking. I'm not saying that I'm very mature, I'm still in the stage of growing up; but I find that somehow God had changed my thinking after an incident happened last few years. God had widen my thinking and vision. I know how to see things in many perspective. I'm able to think out of the box. Therefore, my thinking is much differ from people of my age.

Somethime, things that they do make me shake my head in disapproval. I just find that it's a real waste of time to make a big fuss of nothing; real waste of energy & brain cells to think about this whole incident over and over again. It's really stupid, might as well do something better than that like meaningful things. Why let the insignificant things affect the friendship/ relationship you have with someone? Not a matter of the duration of the friendship/ relationship but the significant rapport you have with someone. Do you know it's never easy for us to meet with the friends we have with us now? It's not necessary that they will be your friend. However, being friend is also part of your effort. It takes two hands to clap. Don't you agreed?

They may make mistake but why can't we just can't forgive them? They are humans afterall even ourselves. We made mistakes. We are sinners too. Why are we judging people when we are imperfect ourselves? Unless you can be sure that you are perfect, you dont make mistakes, you have no sin. But to what I feel no one in this world can ever be sinless, perfect. Only Jesus Christ is sinless, blameless and perfect. He's as clean as a new bought cloth. That's why He can cleanse us with His blood & the exchange of His life.

Although I really dont like loud speakers, petty chap, however, I don't condemn them because of that reason. I will only shake my head in disapproval. I think they know this entire problem themselves, may be they don't. But I think they need time to change. I believe they can & hope they will change for the better. Because I can see myself changing as time pass by. I feel that impression of someone is very important, especially impression that is presented to people you first met. I'm not talking about appearance here.

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